Just in case there were any interested, a brief conclusion in regards to my previous post mentioned Saturday.

It went.

No worries about trying to figure out what to say to people. Seems despite my asking and her promise not to, Ursel has been going around telling everyone.

Then later, she says to me, “So, when things are clearer you’ll be coming back?”

I guess the whole “I am moving to Vermont,” just can’t register there, though she did say in a chipper voice before I left, “Good luck with all your plans!”

Beyond that, no one else (three others) noticed as I walked out the door for the final time, my personals, things like tea and coffee cup carried in my hands, (Oh, and lets not forget a check for $44.39! Whoopee!) Started working there when I was 16 and I’ll be 38 come January, my last day of work and not even a wave as I walked out the door from this tight little group near close as family...birthdays, grandkids born and funerals gone to...

No matter, I’ve never had much use for “family” after all.

Man, I just want out. Am so tired of this place, of its people. Emile and I are both so exhausted, we have nothing more to give...thus the Takers no longer come. In other words, no one comes by anymore. Not a single person showed up for the meditation group. Last one of those as well I guess...

So, it is Tuesday, 4:30 am, and all I am going to say is that was just my Saturday. Oh, lots more I could write, yet nothing which would accomplish anything so why waste the effort?

Still, was some interesting stuff. Such as Monday morning, taking Timber out, I saw the front of the driveway was covered with broken glass. (Looked like a bomb dropped from above, the mess was covering a huge area.) So, I let him finish his little pee and then came back out with a dustpan while Emile slept. Thin glass vase with some flowers in it. Possibly some student dropped them and just walked away. Shame, that. Still, I cleaned up the glass, so I deserved to keep the small roses (Tea ones? Not certain, but they are a nice yellow-green,) I picked out, and they are in a new vase on a shelf. Something to look at while we are packing.

Lots to be seen in that little bit; the broken glass and abandoned roses, philosophy of varying natures, yet I will leave such to you to give it any effort. I’ve already got mine.

Last bit, the Trouble Makers are circling again. Sunday was nice, sunny, yet They were around, and thus we kept our activities inside. Wasted another day when I could have been working on the foundation. That week of solid rain really set us back...

The energies were so “tense” Emile brought Miss Jinx right back in and she was real miffed for being locked inside the house all day. Even closed the shop a bit early. No problem, not a single customer or call the whole day...and being alone in our house with the front doors unlocked on a quiet Sunday street while They built up their numbers and antagonisms...yeah, Emile made the right call there.

So much to do; just Emile and myself alone. I’m 37 and he’s 51, one would like to imagine that after all the years and things we’ve done for people in our lives, that there would be a single person come to help.

Ah well, nothing new there. My opinion of Humanity proved true yet again.

Good morning, World. Bring the day on, you bitch, we’re ready for ya. It is just life after all.

Cheers,

Melissa

Aww, Melissa, honey... I'm so sorry this has been happening to you. We never really know who truly cares about us until we're most in need; then, it's like a punch to the gut when we see we're on our own...

You probably know this already, but Mercury is in retrograde, right now, so all those negative forces we manage to fend off during the rest of the month are really wreaking havoc with people. That doesn't justify what's happening to you and Emile - no way! - but maybe it might be at least partially responsible for how you're feeling. Just a thought, my friend.

Please know that even though I'm in one part of the world and you're in the other, I'm still sending you as much positive energy as I can. Maybe that doesn't mean much, or maybe it means something, but it's all I can do from here. Some day, maybe we'll meet each other face to face, and then it will be better, because then I could give you a big hug.

For now, I can hug you from a distance with my heart and this little emo--->

Be well, my friend. You are loved...

Hi sweetie. I'm just dropping by to see how you're doing and how things are going. I imagine you and Emile are pretty busy, right now, but I look forward to your next post.

Take care and be well, dear friend.

I’m with Holly, I might be miles away but I am sending you all the positive energies I can. If I were closer I would be there healing to pack and helping you get ready for this new and wonderful journey you are getting ready for. I pulled an angel card for you today and it came up the Angel Azrael who states he is with you in your time of need helping to heal your heart and offer comfort. Even the strongest of us need a lift now and then so write down your feelings and then ask him to help find a healing comfort for all the pain you are hiding. Leave all this crap behind you as you set out renewed- refreshed and ready for this new phase of your life. Release the old and welcome the new. YOU WILL BE MOER THAN FINE! I know it, I have seen it!
So this is what you need, his help so just ask him for it. Also his colors are a pale yellow/cream, it wouldn’t hurt to put some of that color on you as you remember to ask for his help (and stop being so stubborn thinking its ok for others to have help but not for you!). It is said when he is around you can see creamy twinkling lights. Find a yellowish calcite and hold or wear it, it will help and you will grow strong in mind and BODY once again
o:)

I am with lady and Holly. That makes 3 of us sending our love and healing and protection thoughts to you and Emile. You are above the trouble souls who waisting thier time trialing you both. Be strong =. BE happy. luv, shine

Thank you, my friends. Your words--just your contact--means so very much to me right now. (hugs)

Very busy here, so much to do with so litte...still am going to manage.

Will log on next when I can, and just too tired to see right now.
hugs,
melissa